un-think

lurking behind the receptacles of memory..are the lesser memories forgotten compeletely...or memories that got undone..unmemoried..

do we forget things ..or can we forget things at all?

conversly..

is it possible to freeze beautiful moments as they are??
forever?n not let the strings of time distort them?

cos my history,
my present,
is a bundle of entangled memories
some that i want to strangle without mirth
some that i want to integrate into my everyday existence
some that have dissolved into nothingness..

and yet..

memories...do have a life of their own..but that life is..passive.. they may fade with time..n even if they dont ..

their significance does ..


i dont want these moments -
these specific ones -
to be framed in the relegates of my mind
as memories
that will hang
and float
but wont breathe into my face

i want these moments
to live
an eternal life
not frozen
but retained in their livingness
their vitality

your hand as real as ever on my cheek
the volatile touch
waitin for me to seek refuge in it whenever they snap at me

the world is now divided.

theres 'them'
and there's 'you'

muzik

How will it feel to just fly away...soar high...very high... and never come back..out of reach for the endless bounds of earthly existence...no obligations..responsibilities..dependence...

to feel yourself kissing the ephemeral clouds...wrapping themselves around your body like white curtains..

oh divine abandon! feeling yourself expand...like a turbulent volacano...blessed with the prowess to do anything...rising above god?or is that heresy? for once though..letme over reach...lemme be icarus whose wings could not be melted by the fiercest sun....lemme swallow the seven oceans and yet not be full...

gimme fire...yeah...turbulence...tornadoes....thunderous grey....scorching red...

lemme dance ...dance and unite myself with everything around...birds and dolphins alike...feeling the urgency of a storm in my veins..

just feeling and moving..